Deja Vu apology

So here I come (again!) with my tail between my legs.  Sorry guys, I’m such a crappy blogger I’m starting to annoy myself.  So here’s the scoop.  I’m trying to decide how I want this blog to be, and I came to the conclusion that I was being really strict with myself.  Blogging every day, logging every workout, and posting every meal.  That’s great for someone who can actually keep that up, but me, I have far too little motivation, so it was a great idea, but it lead to a big time burnout for me.  I also realized I don’t really like the gym, and fell off the wagon hard, like plummeted down a cliff and landed in a flaming pile of garbage hard.  I have eaten to many pieces of pizza, bags of Swedish fish, and far too little salad, fruit and veggies. 

noted...thanks carrot

To top it off, since Wednesday the 2^nd, my workouts have been basically non-existent.  Now don’t get me wrong, I can still fit in my clothes, they just aren’t as comfortable as they should be.  I have a certain pair of jeans that I use as a gauge to see if I need to lose a few lbs ( I HATE the scale).  They are a size 4 (I wear a 4/6), and have absolutely NO stretch in them.   They fit well when I’m actually being healthy, but as soon as I step off the fitness train, they get tight, and let me tell you, those suckers are tiiiight!  Like lay down-suck it in-zip it up- not breath-tight.  So I’ve got to get it together, or I’m going to go down a road that I don’t want to.  I didn’t work this hard to let it all go.



I have come up with a plan though.  I’m going to try and eat mindfully, and intuitively.  Meaning, I will try and keep up the healthy eats, but If I want  an extra piece of toast I will have it, I will eat when I’m hungry and tell myself it’s OK J.  I am also ditching the gym.  Don’t get me wrong, the LiveFit Trainer is awesome and because it’s a free program it’s not like I’m losing money, but I think it’s something best saved for the winter months – so I will probably pick it up towards that time of year.  I also really enjoy working out at home, call me cray cray but I like it.  I can push myself super hard and not care if I look like a lunatic – which I most likely do.  I decided that I’m going to do another round of Insanity.  Its only 60 days, and I know first-hand that it whips me into shape.  I thought about only doing 30 days of it, but quickly slapped myself in the face and told my lazy self to suck it up and do the full round.  So I am.  Not sure when I’ll start, by Sunday for sure.

I’m still going to post my workouts, just to keep ya’ll in the loop, but not to the extent that I was.  If I have something really profound to say about a workout, I’ll say it, but that probably won’t happen cause I really have nothing useful to say anyway.  I’ll post my eats as much as I can, but I’m not going to make a huge deal about it.  I’m sure by now you all know I drink Shakeology every.damn.day, and I’m pretty sure you don’t need to see countless pictures of eggs.  So you can all breath a collective sigh of relief for that!

luckily, I eat all my eggs before they even stand a chance of being put in one basket, whew...crisis averted

I’m also going to blog when I want to, I don’t want to make it seem like a chore, or something I “have” to do.  So that could mean more than one post a day, or one every few days – just tryin’ to keep you on your toes!

So that’s the down and dirty, turns out I’m human after all and I have issues :).  Hopefully you guys can relate.  Also, J-Lance Armstrong is out in Moab mountain biking for the week, so it’s just me and the animals.  I don’t particularly like being home alone, so pray for me that I don’t just sit on my rear and eat my feelings all week – it could get ugly.